Maryland

I've been thinking, I've been thinking I've been thinking too much

I just wanna live now for little while and cast my dreams to the wind.

Don't wanna wonder don't wanna wonder what it's all about

I'm just working for a living singing with my friends as I cast my dreams to the wind.

Maryland I'm coming Home

Never worry about what I did wrong and

that I'll never be what my daddy wanted me to be

I'll never see what my momma's dreams were

By Vonda Shepherd

Even though I have moments of doubt and loneness, I know that when I look back on this time in my life I can say that I DID see my mother's dreams and my own. I do think I've been thinking too much and need to relax and take one day at a time. This past week I wasn't feeling well and I started working a lot. The professors at school scared me a little and I needed to re-group. Nothing worth getting is easy to get or everyone would have it...Right? So I'm refocusing here. I am typing up my notes after my hard classes to make sure I understand everything. I'm working a lot which tow things for me, 1 I save/earn money, 2 I'm so damn tired after work I stay home so it's easy to wake up in the morning for class.

My puppy Bailey has been sick this week. To spare you the nasty details, she wasn't making it outside. "Gotta, go gotta go right now!" Yesterday morning Bailey woke up and crawled out from under the covers. She say right under my arm and threw up on my bed and me! I jumped up, threw the sheets in the wash...And went back to bed until 11. At that point I found a Vet, thanks Kassi, and we were seen at 11:30. Everyone loved my cute little puppy.

I now have a stie (not sure how to spell it) on my left eye. What is with this place? When I first moved here my face broke out like a 13 year old girl! Thank God I finally got that resolved! And now this! It isn't bad and I don't know if people really even notice it, but everything I look straight I see it in my line of sight. It's giving me a headache.

There are two days until my birthday...I have to say that enough though I don't have the birthday mug, I'm still really excited. I know my mother already has cards in the mail. I LOVE MAIL! My spirits are up and I"m motivated to make this the best decision of my life.