It's funny how in one day your attitude can change so drastically and how much little things can ruin a perfectly good day. I went out until about midnight last night with my friend Kassi. We went to a local restaurant to hear a guy sing we had met the weekend before. She and I weren't drinking so waking up for my 8:00AM class this morning was no problem. I also really like my 8:00AM class so I don't know if even a hangover would keep me from it. But anyway, I go to class and sit next to the people I WANT to be friends with but still haven't spoken to and allow myself to emerge into the four big Record Companies that monopolize the record industry.
After class I was awake and ready to get a lot of errands accomplished. I went to the grocery store for the first time in a month and actually had money to pay for it! :o) I bought a lot of fruits and veggies and cut them up when I got home so they are ready to eat. If I don't do this then they will sit in the bottom of my fridge and dead a slow death. Lovely right?
Then I went to my second class which I usually LOVE. It's Mass Media and the professor is really funny. But today, he was not so funny. I didn't follow the relevancy of his notes and couldn't decipher what was really important. That was frustrating, but it didn't ruin the day. I went to work and had lovely customers all night. I even sat down with a food critic and we talked for about a half hour. From there I went to my favorite past time, KARAOKE! This is where my day ends up in the shit hole. Karaoke in Murfreesboro is not the same as in Baltimore. They don't have the "Karaoke Rule Book" down here. :o) The bar was PACTED with people all about my age but I still felt older! People were loud and drunk and my patience was wearing thin. To top it off, I can't drink until Tuesday because of the medicine I'm taking! AHHHH!!!! I don't know, maybe I grew up too fast and now all this college shit is getting on my nerves! I miss the Ridge Inn and all my karaoke regulars! I miss being able to walk into the bar and know at least 10 people! I miss not even having to look up songs because Galen would put me in the rotation and find out what song I want to sing when I got up there! I miss sitting at home and watching my digital cable under two blankets! I really miss watching Law and Order SVU every night at 10 and 11! I know things will get better and maybe I won't miss Maryland as much soon....But tonight I just wish I could have gone somewhere low key like all my favorite spots in Baltimore. That's enough wining for one night!
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It will get better with a little time. Murfreesboro is certainly not Baltimore, however I'm sure there are some spots that are a little less "collegiate" and a little more to your style and liking. I'll see what I can find out.
Hope you're feeling better today!
That shitty feeling that you have expressed so well here is called growing pains.
The fact that you already have friends to go out with is proof positive that you will be just fine. You are down there to do something different than you did up here. Its not supposed to be the same. Thank God its not. (and you remember where your middle finger is, right? good - next time use that to select your karakoe song)
(here's the sister pep talk)
You have ambition and the talent to back it up. There is no feelng sorry for yourself! You should feel blessed that you have the chance to follow your dreams. You've always wanted this and you're doing it! That alone should make you smile in your sleep:)
xoxo
ps your mom will be there soon - focus on that
pps she is bringing my bd gift with her (with which you'll have a bit of homework to do)
I agree with our sis, you will be fine. Every new place has some adjustments. You know we love you and we are here for you, but Baltimore has nothing to offer you and you know it! Stick to your dream. Soon TN won't know what the hell hit them.
I've had the same problem everytime I moved to a different state. I really regret it at first because of the friends and places u leave behind. But u can't be STAGNATE. Lol. U come to know this area and once u get away from Murfreesboro and r not around the "college scene" NSV will start to grow on you. I've lived all over and always said to my self " I can't wait to get back to Dallas." Well my darlin Nashville was the st time I've not desired to move back there. You know you have a GREAT friend in me and I will always be one u can depend on.
Your feelings are normal. You'll get through the homesickness and one day realize you've found a second home. Give it time.
All of these feelings come with any adventure and change.
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