I Guess I Knew it Would Happen

Current mood: optimistic
Now that I'm getting older, it's about that time when past lovers will be moving on and marrying. I don't know why it hurts women so much when their Ex's get married before them. Maybe there is a part of me that expects him to love me forever, even though I moved out here and left him. Maybe it's because I think I should marry first. I left him for a better life and at this point I don't know if this is a better life, just a different one that I'm more proud of. He is marrying the one person that I really don't like. We let her live with us when she was down on her luck, and Bren got her a job at his work. I guess that's where it all started. At that time I thought I'd be marrying him, but as it turned out, that's where he MET his wife. That sure will be an interesting story to tell the grand kids. :o)
So it's time to erase his number from my phone, e-mail from my address book, and pictures from my computer. I haven't spoken with him since last December so there is really no need for all that information anyway. I guess I just kept it, just in case he needed me or I needed him. But even in my lowest state last year I knew he was not the one to call. So what was I saving it for? The history we had maybe? Who knows?

On a lighter note, here are some weekly updates.
1. Keep my friend Amy in your prayers, he lost her Grandfather the other day. I love you sweet heart and will call you today.
2. Jessica Braley is coming to visit next week, I'm really excited.
3. My first orchestra concert is next sunday (the 22nd). I'm excited to play in front of an audience again. If you are free, I'd love it if you came to see me.
4. I got a B on my promotions test and on my Legal Problems test. Good Job!
That might be it. :o)
5. I'm going out to dinner with Crystal from the daycare today and then Karaoke tonight. Good Times!