Tuesday, April 18, 2006

When is enough, enough?

Does the drama ever seriously end? Maybe I should have learned my lesson by now but instead I am just a target for drama. I am 25 years old and I have taken the position of babysitter for a 20 year old woman. I can’t figure this out. We have the same f*@king argument every time she drinks and the morning after I hear the same thing. I feel like a wife who gets slapped around by her husband but still sticks around the next morning to make him breakfast! When are the apologies not enough? I'm so much like my mother it scares me. I can't walk away from someone who I feel needs my help.
Have you ever seen the movie “The Mexican” with Julia Roberts and Brad Pitt? Well there is a scene when Julia Robert and her kidnapper have a conversation about her relationship with Brad Pitt. He asked her, “when two people really love each other but just can’t seem to get things right, when is enough, enough?” When do you give up? The correct answer is, never. Maybe that is true for the love of your life, but what about a best friend that you haven’t even known a full year? After the past few weeks I just don’t know anymore. I asked her last night what she would do if she were me...she had no answer. I can’t keep forgiving this behavior because it makes it is OK.

I know this is really vague but it would be unfair to share with you all my dirty laundry. If you do have any advice I would appreciate it.

Sunday, April 16, 2006

I Know it Has Been Awhile



I guess we should go back to March when Jessi came to visit. She got a long really well with Jessica and Katie and the four of us had an awesome time. We went into Nashville a few nights and also just relaxed here at the apartment. It was nice to have a friend from home here.

Since then I've been working like a crazy person! My classes this semester give be a lot of busy work (which I hate) and my Copyright Law class has been really kicking my butt. I have a HUGE project due tomorrow in my Artist Management class. My group had to develop a career plan for a new artist that had to have a detailed plan for the first two years of her career. Our artist is Treva Blomquist, check her out. I'm really loving this project because I've learned a ton of information, and I think this might be just the career path for me!

One of my big sisters, AM, came to visit me last week. I can't tell you just how much I LOVED my time with her. I had her all to myself for four days and I just couldn't stop smiling.

She flew in Wednesday afternoon and we went to eat at Outback then just had a low key night with friends at the apartment. AM made up silly games to play and I felt like I was back in high school and I LOVED IT!

Thursday morning I had to go to class but when I got home AM and I went to the park with Bailey and took it easy for the afternoon. That night we went to dinner, which our lovely mother paid for, at this super cute restaurant on the square in Murfreesboro. After dinner we went downtown to my favorite bar and just enjoyed the music and each other.

Friday morning we got up just as early as we could (AM got up at 9:00 I couldn't get up until 11:00) and went to the Grand Ole Opry. We went into the museum there and just walked through the Opryland Mall. We couldn't stay long because I had to work at 5.

While I was at work AM watched movies and wrote a paper. When I finally got home we went to a local Bar & Grill and hung out with my friends from work.

Saturday morning I had to take her to the airport..I hate that part. Luckily I will be home in May. Next weekend I have another visitor! I can't wait.